We got to know this new friend better and enjoy someone who got to know us as people before judging based on the opinions of others. They played until dark and we were all outside until the kids were too tired to play anymore. Then this evening, after Brennah got home a friend came over and brought her son to play with Brennah. It's not about who we sleep with, it is about a relationship that is full of love and acceptance for each other and wanting to see each other succeed and fulfill dreams and being there to support each other. We love spending time together and flirting and playing around with each other and just being in each other's company. You know, a lot of people think being gay or a lesbian is so wrong or so disgusting and "why do I care who you sleep with," but for us, we are just like everyone else. We worked hard together and enjoyed each other's company while working to take down some pesky weeds and vines in the yard. Now, this may not sound like a "good day" or fun, but it was. Sarah and I got to spend some quality time together doing yard work. ![]() On the way home, one of Brennah's friends called to see if she could come play, which she did. It was nice to sit in the yard and listen to everyone visit and enjoy each other's company. And I challenged the belief of being "dirty" and "unworthy." I walked safely throught some very ugly memories and I SURVIVED!!! Yes, it made my chest tight and my stomach hurt for a little bit, but I faced it and survived it and that is HUGE!! After all of that we went to a family bar bq and I got to see family that I haven't seen in a long time. But today, I pushed through some pretty ugly stuff. I have been scared for so long to face the pictures and memories of my past. EMDR is used to help quickly process traumatic events by bringing up a picture of the event and beliefs due to the event and dealing with them in a safe manner and then reprocessing your mind to deal with it more effectively. This morning I did EMDR (Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing). You'll be surprised what you find.Today was a good day! It wasn't an exceptionally special day really, it was just a good day! This morning I faced a fear I have been putting off for over 6 years. Next time you are going through a rough patch and are feeling a bit like a "negative Nancy", try looking on the brighter side of things. I learned from each one and despite those trials, I made sure that each day was filled with smiles, laughter, and love." But I got through them and made the best of them. When I am an old grandma sitting in my rocking chair on my front porch, I want to look back on my life and say, "Yea, I went through some hard times. I believe that each day is a blessing and that we should make each one count for something. ![]() No matter what you are going through, things can always be worse. Life is precious gift and to lead a life with a negative mind will only leave you with a negative life. And it taught me more about how to live a positive life. As I look back on it now, I look at it with a positive attitude because I grew and I learned from that experience. But I began to think that maybe I was going through this journey for SOME reason. ![]() When I was diagnosed with cancer in 2012, I am not going to lie, the thought "Why me?" did cross my mind in the early days after my diagnosis.
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